hey kids don’t tell Your Favorite Artist you’re going to kill yourself and then immediately follow up asking them to draw you something
This is a super unfair thing to do to content creators, do not do it, not only are you putting the responsibilities of your issues on a Complete Stranger, this is Bait, it’s guilt tripping, it’s pretty much abuse, you’re stressing and worrying someone who potentially has their own issues to deal with and doesn’t need ‘random internet stranger killing themselves because I didn’t have the physical or mental energy to make a thing for them’ added to their burden.
There are a million and one things you can do wrt your suicidal tendencies on the internet, none of them involve directly contacting and burdening people you don’t know on tumblr.